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i am so fucking pissed.

my favorite headphones i've ever had are fucking broken. they were skull candy and yellow, lime green, and electric blue on black with purple writing. and they had a slide-y bar that adjusted the vloume and i could hear everything.

they were fucking awesome, and the minute i let someone borrow them without supervision for two seconds, they break.

fml,
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gimme topics, y/y?

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Gerard Way named his daughter Bandit Lee.

*sigh* jesus christ, GeeWay, jesus christ. and i thought Bronx Mowgli was weird...

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Jared Padalecki is just too cute for words.

today is a sad day indeed.

the one and only Gerard "the Pwetty Fish" Way was slaughtered by another homophobic fish that will now not be given a name, for he doesn't deserve it.

rest in peace, Gerard, the only fish i have ever truly loved.

(here's the story:

my dad came home with a bunch of fish and said that i could have one, and to name one for my mama. i named my mama's Frank, and mine Gerard. well, Frank died and Gerard lived. since then he has been swimming emo-ly in a corner of the fish tank and being tortured by the other, not as cute, fish.

well, a couple days ago, he came home with like, $30 worth of fish, and i told him that if Gerard died because of his greed, i would pay him back in a painfully unimaginable way.

Gerard was murdered today at an indiscernible time.)

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i keep finding a reoccurring problem with NCIS fanfic:

NO ONE EVER EXPLAINS ANYTHING! at least on fanfiction.net. and i don't really want to read on LJ, because it's all long chapter-ed fic.

i mean, there's barely any description and NEVER, EVER a reason behind the "epic love affair of Tony and Gibbs".

fuck that shit. oh well, i love Gibbs, so...

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they're putting down my grandmother's dog.

i going to miss her so much.

i'm not even getting to say goodbye.

the phone rang when i was writing this and it was my gram. she was crying and telling me how and where they were going to bury Maggie. and as soon as i got off the phone i started sobbing. i'm going to miss her so much. she was so full of life. it shit like this, the most wonderful of dogs getting cancer, that makes me know there isn't any god.

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you have no clue how much this breaks my heart. last year was bad enough with the fucking fetus, but Kris Allen DOES NOT deserve to be in the Finals. Danny WAS NEVER in the bottom three, and he has such a wonderful voice.

nevertheless, he'll get a record deal. Kris probably won't be that big. hopefully, anyway.

you have no clue how much i want Adam to win. i mean, i wasn't going to watch next season anyway, because of Simon leaving, but if Adam doesn't win, you'll have one homicidal mofo.

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lately, i've been thinking a lot about death. i've been sort of obsessed with death since i was little. i used to act out death scenes in my room with my best friend, long dramatic love scenes that ended in him kissing my cheek, and saying he loved me.

i was always the one to die.

even now, i'll have to go out to my dad's shed, my grandmother's garage and a thought of death will pop into my head. "what if a spider jumps at me, i scream and it goes down my throat?"

"what if an escaped convict is in there, waiting for someone to kill."

"what if i fall into a portal leading into an alternate universe where human's are slaves to demons or monkeys or something even more horrible."

some of my death scenes don't exactly make sense.

but my most common death scene is that i get shot. it doesn't matter where or why, but i wake up, either from daydream or nightmare, in a sweat. i feel the rivets of sweat and think it's blood.

i'm kinda a weird fuck.

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because people are loser's here's a link to Ray, Mikey and Frank's reaction.
Mikey way, i love you more.

then i got side tracked:



jesus christ, i am in love with Alex Suarez, seriously watch this shit:

oh my god! this is going to be short...

Adam singing Zeppelin was too amazing! his voice~ and pants~ and hair~! if only he wasn't gay...

Allison did not pick the best song, but: SHE STILL ROCKED OUT LOUD!

Danny and Kris's duet was awesome! even though i hate Styx almost as much as i hate the Beatles. Danny was top on, and they complemented each other's voices very well.

i didn't like Kris's solo though. like i said, i hate the Beatles, and he tried to make the song heavier than it's supposed to be.

Danny should not sing Aerosmith. it's just not him. with his voice he would have been good with Guns 'n' Roses or Queen. and Simon was right, that last note was like a horror show.

ADAM AND ALLISON'S DUET MADE ME WANT TO HUG PUPPIES! I LOVE THEM BOTH SO MUCH! I WANT BIG-BROTHER-LITTLE-SISTER FIC NOW!!!!

on that note,
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i just went and saw "X-Men Origins: Wolverine" and it was SO~ awesome! i love~ Hugh Jackman, but that's not even why!

the opening, with the montage of Logan and Victor in all the wars, and Deadpool, and GAMBIT~! OH GAMBIT HOW I LOVE THEE! and Dom Monaghan! don't you think for a second i didn't see you being all Bolt-y!

Taylor Kitsch's accent wasn't the best (as in, not there at all) but still, his attitude was wonderful! perfect! superb! but i may be bias, just a tiny bit.

also, i want an AU where Logan left with Remy. *waves slash!tinhat*

i didn't like Striker though. i liked Striker from X2, they should have had him again. also: Deadpool? fucking hot! (well until the whole fucked up!face, though that was still fucking sweet!)

so i'm gonna see if my cuz will go see it with me again before it leaves theaters, because i cannot wait for months to see it again!

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ADAM LAMBERT!!!!

I CAN'T BELIEVE HE'S IN THE BOTTOM THREE!!!!

DANNY'S LITTLE STUPID GOB-STRUCK FACE!!!! THE POOR GUY, HIS LOVER MIGHT LEAVE!!!!

*gasps* IF ADAM LEAVES I'LL CRY~!!!!

AHHHHHH

*watches Natalie Cole*

HURRY UP, OLD LADY!!!! I MUST KNOW IF ADAM IS SAFE~!!!!

*leaves for break*

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH COMMERCIALS ARE THE BANE OF MY EXISTENCE!!!!

ADAM!!!!

I'M DIEING INSIDE!!!!

*hyperventilates*

*commercial ends*

IT'S BACK!!!!

*Taylor Hicks comes out on stage*

NO I DON'T WANT TAYLOR HICKS!!!! I WANT ADAM TO BE SAFE!!!!

(as much as my mom loved "Soul Patrol" i didn't like him to much)

LEAVE TAYLOR HICKS!!!! ADAM~!!!!

*yowls*

*Ryan announces that Matt, Adam, and Kris are coming back on stage*

ADAM IS BACK!!!! BE SAFE!!!!

*Kris is declared safe*

NO NOT KRIS NEVER KRIS!!!! HE WAS SUPPOSED TO LEAVE THIS WEEK!!!! NOT MATT AND DEFINITELY NOT ADAM!!!!

*commercials start*

*ignores Jamie Fox and messes with IJ settings*

SHUT UP JAMIE FOX!!!!

*Adam and Matt come out on stage*

GAH!!!!

COMMERCIALS!!!!

*love the above the influence commercial*

*show comes back on*

ADAM~!!!!

*Ryan teases his lover*

SHUT UP RYAN!!!!

ADAM IS SAFE~!!!! *flails* \o/

NO~ MATT!!!! I SHALL MISS YE!!!!

Matt looks like he's about to cry... *sad!face*

*bets Danny squealed inside when Adam was safe* bets good~ money!

meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh *pouts* on his good week too!

well, that's all for now folks!

hope you liked my running commintary of my thoughts...

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so i really didn't want my first post to be about American Idol, but jesus h. mahogany!

first of all, note these words: i like Kris like i liked Archie last year: something to entertain me in between the real singers, kay? and tonight, it was one of his better performances, yes, but it wasn't that good. (though i did love his rendition of "She Works Hard for the Money" on disco week.)

next up: FUCK YEAH ALLISON! LAST GIRL IN THE HOUSE! WOOT! i've cheered for her since the original audition, and I LOVE HER! (in a strictly heterosexual, fan way.) she was top on tonight, and i love her rendition of that song! and she doesn't need to "be more likable"! she is the only female i have ever rooted for! she's loverly!

now Matt, dearest Matthew! how i love thee! he was finally in his zone tonight! but you know, i'm kinda biased about him, because he reminds me of my 8th grade social studies teacher, on whom i had a crush. but still, he has a wonderful voice, even if he's not good at showing it.

DANNY GOKEY! i want to shave his beard! (because i have weird fetishes like that.) he's my runner up, but he has a very, very special place in my heart! i've loved him since him and Jamar auditioned, and i root for him every week! i loved his song this week (and feel bad about Jamie Fox getting in his face, i would have busted that ho's grill! *gangsta hands*)!

i do not think there are words to describe my love for Adam motherfucking Lambert. he has the voice, the hair, the stage presence, those soulful eyes, and he's gay! WHAT MORE COULD YOU WANT?!?! him strutting around during "Feeling Good"! OH MY FUCKING GOD! if he wasn't gay, i'd want in his pants so~ bad! I WANTS TO MEETS HIM!!!!1!!ONE!!!

so anyway,
that's all i had to talk about this April the 28th, 2009,
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i'm not going to rant right now, i just wanted to see what my journal looked like with a post.

also:
i feel that, for anyone stumble across this, that i should give a little introduction of myself.

first and most importantly, i believe in equality. between men and woman, homosexuals and heterosexuals, and between races.

second thing you should know about me: music. is. my. life. if i can't do something listening to music, it's not worth my time. i play bass. i have a Dean Edge 10a Electric Bass with Active Electronics that i've named David. (after David Desrosiers from Simple Plan, aka the first band i ever really liked.)

next, i don't get along with uber religious people. mostly because i tend to swear a lot. and because i make fun of the few i know...

which moves right into the next thing: i tend to be bitchy. i'm quite mean and sarcastic, but i'm okay with that. i also make jokes at the exact moment it it inappropriate to. i am very socially challenged.

and lastly: i tend to be obsessive. overly and overtly obsessive...

well, signing off for now,
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